I CAN'T SEE
Last month we had a little scare with my honey. He was moving quickly in the kitchen, securing a small tray from an upper cupboard. Somehow as he turned, he ran smack dab into the corner of the cabinet as the door was closing. I was cooking at the stove with my back toward him. My daughter yelled, “Mom! It’s his eye!” I turned in time to see him holding his hand over the left side of his face, while doing a slow motion sinking to the floor. His body shook & his eyes were half shut. Amazingly calm, I helped lower him down while my daughter went scurrying for the phone saying, “I’m calling 9-1-1.” I’m guesstimating all this happened in a minute. Before I could assess what to do next, Steve’s eyes popped open & he said, “You are NOT calling 9-1-1.” He had no idea how bad the whole scene played out to us onlookers. It was unnerving!
Truth be told, his glasses likely protected his eye as they went flying, broken, into the next room. The cabinet corner hit him in the temple & he had momentarily blacked out. He had no recall of me helping him. We quickly seated him on the couch & iced the cut on his cheek, with him protesting as we carried out concussion protocol. (Sometimes nursing love needs to be firm. 😊) “I’m ok,” he kept saying. I replied, “That’s good. But we’re still watching your eyes & you need to ice for 20 minutes.”
One phone call, the next day, confirmed that his present frames were no longer under warranty & he was due for an eye exam. Meantime, Mr. Fix-it glued the pieces back together again, a doable but temporary solution. I love the way the good Lord uses practical life situations to remind me of the Truth in His Word. Such was Steve’s eye exam. You all know the drill…reading the lines you’re able to clearly identify & then choosing between option “1,” or “2,” over & over-- as the doctor goes through a variety of optical tests. At the conclusion, Steve was shown his old prescription compared to the new updates he needed. When he looked at the reading charts through his old lenses, he reported, “I can’t see ANYTHING clearly.” He is truly excited about the thought of seeing better. I’m excited about the new frames. 😊 (Never did like the old ones.) If he hadn’t had his little kitchen accident, he likely would’ve continued wearing his old glasses, not realizing what he was missing.
I’m sometimes content to “wear” old spiritual glasses. I like to stay put, & not necessarily consider alterations to my personal, perceived 20-20 vision. Even if I catch a glimpse of something better, do I want to go through what is required to make it happen? Hm-m, no. The cost can appear to unravel my present comfort zone. I’m content with what I’ve grown used to and don’t want my boat rocked. I can resist the very thought of changes that could, in the long run, be very beneficial to me. It’s the “if it isn’t broken, don’t fix it” attitude--spiritually. But realistically, as in the physical world, even things that work now, can wear & break over time. The “new” is often a wise choice, as opposed to “patching” the old. You intuitively know it’s time to move on.
Relationship with the Lord is never stagnant. I always need more of His sanctifying touch & He faithfully, lovingly delivers in my moments of bewilderment. This can look like a blessing, or it can be outright challenging. My “more” is often taught by out-of-my-control-trials that leave me feeling desperate. Painful lessons are the most life-changing. Though not my favorite, I’ve come to understand that these are the truths that are woven into my life, to become part of the updated me. A more dependent- on-Jesus-me. I’ve often thought, “Lord, I don’t even want to think about what I’m suspecting is coming. I can’t deal with it.” In His perfect timing, He prepares me for what’s ahead—ready or not. By the time I get there & I get my newer spiritual prescription, I realize that I wasn’t seeing 20/20 after all. I want to accept/see clearly what God has for me, & not resist His plan because I’m accustomed to blurry vision. “Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard, and which have not entered the heart of man, all that God has prepared for those who love Him. (I Corinthians 2:9)